Sunday, January 5, 2014
Blogging not for me not for you but for Them
A Safety Net:
In my pilot post I failed to mention why blog at all. Here it is: I want to blog because there are so many like me--Jewish Modern Orthodox kids who fall through the cracks. These are kids who leave their "Jewish bubbles," and enter a world of drugs, partying, religious confusion, forgetting about their 18 years of Jewish education their parents devoted so much to instill.
I will come right out and say it. I am blogging to be selfish (please, allow me to be selfish for a moment). I recently read a study about how across the Jewish gamut of Reform, Conservative, Modern Orthodox, and Ultra Orthodox, the only consistent population growth of religiously affiliated children (who grow to become religiously affiliated adults) are the Ultra Orthodox. The frightful, radical decline of affiliation emerges through assimilation, intermarriage, and overall lack of interest.
It's shaped a very different future of Judaism.
This is why I blog. I am blogging so that I do not become extinct, and because I believe the face of Judaism cannot only be the face of an Ultra Orthodox Chassid in Borough Park or Ukraine, in England.
I am blogging so that together you and I can keep me safe; I am actively choosing not to become a statistic in the fall of Modern Orthodoxy. I will not let my grandchildren leave the faith because of my carelessness, because of things I could have done better, more meticulously. I will not hold a funeral for my Jewish values, lower my morals into a casket, donning sackcloth over unmet expectations laid to rest beneath two feet of earth.
Right now you stand at a crossroad with a decision to make: you have the privilege to read my personal diary entries--the confusion, moral struggles, joy, love, tears--but that comes with the responsibility of acceptance without judging. The choice is up to you: do you have the capacity to empathize with a nineteen year old who is simultaneously burdened and blessed by the expectations of her religious community, parents, peers, childhood friends, family and God?
Whether you read or not I will keep writing, because I sure have a story to tell. You never know, it may be just be the most-read anthology in history- next to the Bible of course.
Setting the ground-rules